No more goofing off

I’m a lazy bum… or at least that’s what I’ve been for the past couple of years. I was going through some personal issues and basically lost motivation to be a leader and manager cos I felt it just was too much hassle and stress amidst all the stuff I was going through then. Besides, heck, for the same pay I could do what I’m doing now and not worry abt management responsibilities or having a need to show leadership qualities. Why take on the additional responsibility simply to be a “leader” with the added stress rite? Good deal no? Well, I thought so…

Unfortunately, my bosses and company doesn’t think so… cos of some crap called current expected potential or in their lingo cep. I was assessed to with a high cep many years back and during a recent re-assessment, that was re-affirmed. Now their ass is on the line to ensure that I develop accordingly. Crap. Why can’t they just give me something simple to do and leave me the hell alone to goof off? *sigh* something to do with responsibility commensurate with my job and salary group. Blasted HR conspiracy and cockamamie ideas, if u asked me.

Now I gotta step up, go for courses, start talking to a mentor again, start coaching again, meet folks in the industry and go do all that added responsibility stuff all over again. No more goofing off… damn.